Adding more to this blog

I reread some of my old posts and they are so corny, or naive, or intimately personal. I’m only able to write them because I know that no one is actually reading them. I would be so embarrassed if anyone actually found this blog.

Yet, I want to add to it. I want to add real things, things people might actually be interested in reading. Even if only a few. I have some ideas. Some things I want to preserve in a nice format. Some of the old classic adventure games I played as a child. I want to replay them, and maybe talk about them, and write down some guides for them. I’ve never met anyone who actually played the games I love (even though I know they were popular for a time). I think it would be fun to preserve them here in my own way.

Also, weight gain. I’m a waif. I said to my husband the other day, “I’m a waif of a waifu” or a “waifu waif”. We laughed. It was silly and stupid, but we laughed. I’m really skinny. My BMI is way lower than it should be. I’m 5’4″ and I think at my absolute heaviest I was at 114 pounds. That was in the last year of high school or first year of college. And then I dropped to 107 during my mid twenties, and since hitting 30, I now fluctuate between 96 – 100 pounds. I don’t starve myself. I eat when I’m hungry. But I’ve never had the largest appetite, and I don’t want to eat junk food because the whole world now knows how bad it is to eat unhealthy foods. So then how do you gain weight if you eat healthy and not all that much? You don’t. Of course, no one takes you seriously… not even doctors. Maybe they’ll tell you to drink Ensure. Uh, no thanks. That stuff is basically just sugar, protein powder, and artificial flavors. Yuck. If I’m going to look for added protein, the least I could do is buy a plain powder and mix it into a homemade smoothie instead. Try to tell your friends you are struggling with weight gain (as a woman), and see how long those friends stick around. There are no support groups for trying to gain weight as a woman. I find myself on men’s health blogs, which are the only online websites I could find that mention weight gain struggles. Most of them are directed toward gaining muscles for guys. I’m cool with gaining muscle weight, but honestly, I could use a bit more fat too. I just don’t want it to come from candy bars. If I come up with anything that works… or doesn’t, maybe I’ll include it here too, for the odd person who may benefit from it.